it turns out I was wrong: as a result of a false promise

This evening was also the same as the night before, had a whole month if I counted invitation time, still difficult once the eye is closed. This sport is actually tired but the mind is kept raging not want to stop. considering the bad experiences and new first had. how bad could it be for me this is the very thing to be a burden mentally and certainly impact with my daily life. Unethical I feel like I have to write all of this. but this is a new release tonight for some reason I felt compelled to write.

I'm not going to write my experience it, because it involves many people whom I used to as a role model who can be role models and the pacification of souls after the series of events that I've had from the start in 2013 until the beginning of 2016 yesterday.

it turns out it did not happen, only adds to the deep disappointment. maybe for others events that I've had yet how difficult it is, but that is a real first experience that made an impression and relieve my belief would be that the name promises.

I feel it all the traps betmen that made me go to the well where bruce wayne number first kecemplung wells. every night I try to correct, that there is a sense of disappointment and exasperation were outstanding. I tried to remember all the books I've ever read about the theory of receiving and sincere, in fact feeling disappointed always shadowing, things I'd been through this year, especially pertangahan very draining mind.

I think I opened a new door into the real world, a world where people just adore matter and the life of the world, good intentions sometimes accompanied by the sacrifice was as useless. either have to trust in anyone. see my condition like this even they could not give a solution of illness that requires treatment was their only silent as if they've got what they want and leave me.

No one else really upset me a sweet mouth and all kinds of reasons ejected to drain compassion made in such a way that goals are achieved, although they do not know my intentions were just to help even though it dengna sacrifice what some people say something stupid.

sweet promises came out just to make me give them what they asked for, even though it is actually sacrifice because it encouraged a feeling of wanting to help, call me a fool would call me crazy call me stupid. Who wants to be blamed? every night I blame them every day I menjengkel and every night I thought about this until I do not know what happened to me.

call me a stupid idiot and so on, from the first most sensitiv with promise, when promised it should be is in keep it just and consistent, sometimes my principle is that spark I always rebelled and did not receive promised me when people actually broken. This also makes me hard to forget your mind and let go of this. every night there is always a word why? Why? Why? Why? Why ? Why?

I built all plans must be destroyed and have not materialized. Because of what ? What I have to blame them? blame myself too innocent and trusting all their guile.

What I have to condemn them? I always blamed myself for my stupidity ..... I hope they pay for what they did to me ...
I think I do not know what to do, because all that I have in them ....

This will imprint in my life and be a valuable lesson that will always remember me. in the end I have to be sincere even though it was not as easy as the theory in the book. may god give you the best solution.

Story of my life that made the book such as soap operas serene melancholy ... hahhahaha I can only laugh and cry at the same time ...

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